omgnowaii

ahh i need money.

I haven't even gotten Ritsuka, and I'm already "AHHH SOUBI IS GONNA COST ME SO MUCCHHH HOW WILL I SAVE UP FOR HIIIM"

'cause Soubi is supposed to be a Hound...

and...

just him, NOT INCLUDING CLOTHES AND THE WIG I WANT
is like $700 DDD:



BUt..ugh.

I'm just hoping, by the time I save up and he gets here, I'll be alright with just him for a while.

...
heh


: |

I've reciently been introduced to the anime Loveless.

It's. Fucking. AMAZING.


I LOVE IT T__T
It's so good and sweet.
too bad there's only 12 episodes that I've already watched T_T

I've decided to name my first doll Ritsuka.
And..he'll be Ritsuka from Loveless .__.

and my 2nd doll will be a hound named Soubi...and he'll be from Loveless ._.

I dunno what happened to me, but it's weird.
And..plus, I just LOVE those names.

I can see it now though, after I get Ritsuka, I'll be SOSOSO despreate to get Soubi....maybe i'll convince my mum to help buy him for me or Christmas .__.;;;;;

And I haven't been able to sleep AT ALL.
I just lay there, in my bed, looking out the window, and glancing at the clock every one in a while.
._.

alright~

My mum said she'd give me $100 towards my doll for my B-day.
and my dad owes me..$60
+b-day and chore money

I'll have my little boy sometime this fall

*pauses and laughs*
little boy~

which is good, I can get him little jackets and scarves and x333

anyway, I just drank a cup of green tea, and finished my box of pocky.
I have one left, but i'm saving it for HIM~
ewh~ i hope pocky doesn't go bad.(djhfsjd the boxes of it have japanese all over them ;_; lol they came straight from Japan from my mum's friend <333) if so, next time i'm at my dad i'll walk down to the asian food market and get some for like, $1 <3

It's funny.
the other night i was sitting in my room, looking around.
I gathered a technicolored scarf I have, a American girl laptop, my Kiki kitty (from gaia xD<33), pocky, some clips, and some jewerly, oh and a babmoo chinese calligraphy kit from world market, all sitting on my black round end table.

I'm not sure where i'll have him sleep.
I'll have to wait untill he gets here <3

K um

lets see

I got in a fight with a friend.
over something in a profile of mine
that was stupid..


I asked my mum if for my birthday, the present form her would for her to go 1/2 way with me on my doll

she sighed like she was rly mad and said "we'll see" which to her means no.
Then she went "you could but that computer, camera, alot with that money y'know. you're gonna get tired of that doll. I now it"

and I was all "wtf no. D:"
cause i REALY want one, and i don't think i've ever worked so hard/wanted something THIS MUCH before.

I didn't wanna get my doll during the school year
but if I do
whatever....

I was thinking
if it's this hard to get a $400 doll,
imagine how hard it'll be for me to get a $660 doll
DDD:

It needs to rain
it's been so hot.
except, tonight, it got down to 75
I was happy <3

and my computer is starting to freeze...

i'm done
</3

ugh. I need to change my icon. I want a Delf Shiwoo SO BADLY
But he wouldn't look too good with my MNF Shiwoo.

Anyway, I've made another list.

Dolls I want:

MNF Shiwoo- saving for
Cutie Delf CORY- sister's saving for
AR Ren- Saving for after I get my MNF Shiwoo
Delf Shiwoo- saving for after Ren
Serendipity Valencia (14 age boy type)- still thinking about
Serendipity I.s.m.y (boy)- Probably going to save for if they get him back in stock, and if I REALLY want him
Delf EL- T_T I really want him...but i dunno
D.O.T Camine- totally gonna have him someday, just need to find who he'll be and stuff
Dollshe SA Bernard Hound thing- T_T He's rly tall, and rly pretty. I want him.

I need to figure out where all these will fit in, and everything
Ren will be my MNF Shiwoo's boyfriend. And I was thinking that maybe Delf Shiwoo and Camine will be bf's
and that's all I have. I'm not sure.


Anyway I have like $115 saved towards my doll x3
I should have in him a month or two...
I'm probably going to persuade my grandma to lend me some money towards his eyes and wigs
but i duno.

-_____-

I'm. going.CRAZY

I've been on DoA for like a day or two now?
and it made me even more obsessed.

I think about the dolls 24/7
I DREAM about them
I talk about them all the time
I plan things for them
I'm already collecting rings, accessiories and ugh

I'm not even CLOSE to getting one ;__;

Tomorrow i'm printing out pictures of the ones I want, I'm gonna sit own, look at the pictures throughly, think of names, background life, likes, dislikes, EVERYTHING.
Maybe that'll help me chose which I want to try and gt 1st out of the 4 I want... ._____.

But tonight around....9:45 I sat down with my sister, got on DoA, Luts,DOD, and Gaia (cause i'm in a BJD & Super Dollfie guild). We compaired some dolls, talked about changing eyes, doing face-ups, and everything.

She decided not to get Pitts from DOD.
She's getting the Delf CORY from Luts~
Which will be good for her.
She's only 8.
She doesn't need a huge 25in doll xD
So she's getting that one, which is 10in n__n

And all she needs is $188.85 to go!!!
The girl is closer then me .__.
And she'll probably get that money fast.

I'm not letting her get her doll before me.
I'm thinking of ordering them both at once.
Cause...her having a doll to carry around and love and me, still sitting in the corner, crying over not having one.... won't be pretty.

Plus, she doens't know how to change eyes, hair, anything yet xD
So it'll be better if we BOTH get a doll ;DDD

What else..I forgot...OH!
My mum said she'd think about giving me $20 each day I watch Nat..which is about 5days.
Along with chore money= $20 every two weeks My friend Josh said I'd have a doll in about a month.
I'm too lazy to do the math...I'll do it later when I go into bed.

....sorry for ranting
I couldn't sleep.
2:40 am, yo!
>.

I've been too lazy to update this xD

But um
I'm probably going to FINALLY FINALLY FINALLYYY
make characters to go with the dolls I HOPEFULLY
get some day <3

but yea

um
I finally got my DoA account to work xDD
stupid activation E-mail not being sent to my AOL account >: O

bye yea
<3

It rained all lastnight
and this morning-3:00 it was SOOOO dark out from being cloudy

Now it's pouring.

Something about the rain just makes me feel good
yet sad at the same time...

I was at my friends, walking with her and her little 4 yr old cousin, Nathan, around the block. Poor boy wanted to go to the park but we couldn't take him cause it was sprinkling and we didn't know when it would let loose.

When we got home, he went under her huge tree and played with his trucks while i sat and watched on her porch.

The it poured.

I WALKED home
getting soaked
and cold from the rain
getting this good yet bad feeling inside of me...


I love the rain more then anything~